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posted : Monday, October 18, 2010
title : PRETENTIOUS PEOPLE PLEASE QUIT IT WITH THE 'PIETY'
The alliteration in the title shows how angry I am. I am thoroughly frustrated at everything that is going on in life. I have never felt this frustrated in a very long time - I generally don't get angry but I get irritated a lot.
Okay first of all the problem lies with the pee-double-ew (PW) week which requires every single soul to sit through normal school curriculum to finish up on the Written Report (a 3000+++ words write-up). Okay at first the idea seems appealing, having no lessons but just sitting through a bresson (break-lesson) meaning you are free to do anything. Just when you enjoy the thought of it, bam! Reality hits you like a momonga accidentally flying into your face. You sit in class for an hour. Like a sponge, you absorb all the negative aura from all directions. From your unhappy group member. From your classmates who are unhappy with their group member. From your naggy PW tutor. From the random librarian who is unhappy with you not coiling the laptop wire in the right manner. One word: Frustrating Just when you thought the ordeal couldn't get any worse, there are other particles in your life serving as irritants, just like the dust in the air. Recently, there has been this group of people annoying the crap out of me. These are the people in my school who claim to be all religious and nice when they are just downright judgemental of people. See, when you're really nice, you don't judge. You accept people for the way they are, and not give disapproving looks. Funny how this group of people even tegur others for being 'crude' and in other cases, unpure because you like men. Why? Because "[you] are a girl and girls are supposed to like boys and not men". Amazing logic. But no thank you, I wouldn't take your word for it, for you are not a religious leader despite maybe, well, reading sermons in the morning? If it's a religious teacher I will listen to, it's my Ustaz/Ustazah not you. Oh, and regarding being 'crude', I believe everyone has an innate desire to curse. It is whether or not you replace the much vulgar word with a euphemism, or a less vulgar word. In this case I use 'fuck' alot now instead of the replacements you guys use like hmm, let's see..."what the shit" (I really hate this phrase btw it sounds thoroughly stupid). If you have that desire to curse, it doesn't make you any less of a sinner than I am. Because it is your intention that makes you a sinner, not the words used or even the degree of the vulgarity. So...just because I use more vulgar words and don't use replacement words which sound almost like the word...makes me a much horrible person? You know what's horrible? You being hypocritical to your own faith. We all know everyone is fake in one way or another...but you people need to stop viewing faith/religion on a superficial level. As my sister puts it, there's no point being a check-list christian/muslim/jewish/buddhist/hindu when you don't even have a good heart. Well, let me see...Do people with good faith use people? Hmm...I don't think any righteous person is like that so well, I guess not. Do people with good faith bitch excessively about other people? Well that's a tough question...but I think not. Lastly, do people with good faith preach about good moral values then go around criticizing others about their lack of values and even bitch about these people without these good values? Hmm that sounds thoroughly hypocritical (like what Richard of Gloucester would do) but I guess they DON'T. I know I am a horrible person, I know that better than anyone else. But don't you think it's not nice for a nice person to be so judgemental about others? If you truly are nice, wouldn't you be more accepting towards others? Do you not practice what you preach? If that's the case, that's rather sad, you have scriptures every morning to remind you of values but, like a robot, you only memorise it, you don't practice it. A person of faith, I believe, should be more human and less of a robot right? I am sure a robot isn't at all spiritual, after all, it is constructed by humans. The bottom line is: Some people really are prudes. I have just learnt to ignore them like how I do for most...contradictory people. In fact, I like myself for when I am sarcastic, cynical and defiant for only then do I prove to myself that part of me is still real. That I am as concretely human as can be. And that is all that matters. This is why I miss my commonwealth friends. I miss all the 'crudeness' (as quoted from whoever) without being judged. It's where people are more real. Even if they are pretentious they wouldn't judge others. Extremely angsty P.S: Do not be all 'cultured' on me. Break out of your fucking shell. The world is a horrible place. Sorry to expose you to a world beyond the confines of your holy home and your holy school. God bless you. |
