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posted : Saturday, January 01, 2011
title : Seed
Sometimes I wonder what I'd be if not human.
But I always picture myself as a seed...I have no idea why. Either that or a capybara. This reminds me of the time when I was young and I asked my dad the every-child-would-ask-his parents-question. Me: "Ayah, how are children born?" Of course, this was spoken in Malay. Malay used to be my strongest language next to arabic and english when I was young, duh. Please excuse me if this sounds weird in any way...it is very hard translating malay phrases into english. Ayah: "Oh, well...Afiah, what's your favourite vegetable?" Me: "Cauliflower" Ayah: "Oh then Ibu must have eaten a cauliflower seed (?) which contained you in it. The same goes for abang and kakak. Then the seed grew and Ibu had you" Me: "Oh...just like that?" I can't believe I was so dumb to partially buy that lie when I was young. But I knew something was odd...that didn't make sense at all. As I grew older (and watched countless american tv shows) I thought that babies were a by-product of kissing or making out. It did make some sense. Back in the 90s they used to show kissing scenes and next thing you knew a baby pops out of nowhere. As I grew older I realised how the world seems to revolve around the word sex but of course I didn't know what sex was until I was primary four and... That explained everything. I remembered when I was younger I asked my older siblings "Kak, what is a virgin?" (The days when the word virgin was considered a nasty word although being virgin is as clean as a human can get) This, I remember, was at the viewing gallery of terminal 1. I asked what is a virgin because there was/is an airplane called Virgin Airways. (Which leaves me questioning: So all the other airplanes have broken their virgin knot?) Why were we at terminal 1? Because airplane watching is only the most interesting thing to do for a family outing. Again, I have to reiterate the idea that my family still does this now. But I'm not complaining. Nothing beats being born into an avid, plane-watching family. (Back to the conversation) Kakak: "Cannot tell you now! I will only tell you when you are in primary 5!" Me: "ABANG WHAT IS A VIRGIN?" Abang: "I cannot tell you! I will only tell you when you are older!" Me: "Is a virgin a person who has had sex?" Kakak: "No, close, but I will only tell you when you are older..." Abang: "Alamak, forget it lah, by the time you are in primary 5 you won't even remember to ask us for the meaning" I wonder what led me to thinking that a virgin a person who has had sex. I guess its because of the way sex is such an omnipresent word yet its meaning was kept so hidden... Anyhoo, of course I found the meaning out before I was in primary 5. By the time I was primary 5 however I decided to ask my sister and my bro the meaning and telling them that they told me I would forget but I remembered. They, of course, were the ones who even forgot the conversation exists. Gosh. This is the thing I hate about older siblings. They can scoff at you over anything and still get away with it. I, on the other hand, is the uncool and naive younger sibling who gets bullied because of the lack of knowledge. Thus, when I grew up I made a point to read up so I could get facts that both my siblings didn't know so I can shove it in their faces (I am just kidding). I just wanted to be on par with their intelligence. I think I really am cut out to be a seed. Still in the process of growing. |
